It has been quite a while since I have though about this blog, let alone posted in it. Back in January I was torn over what to do. The more that I missed Aaron the clearer my decision became.
I met criticism along the way. I understand that though. I had a good place to live, I had a job in my career field, and I had a well paying job at that. To give that up for a future of uncertainty... well I can see how that might seem stupid to some. While it hurt to leave the classroom, I didn't want to regret missing out on time with my (now) husband.
Here I am now, back in Spearfish. This place is home in my heart. I feel comfortable and safe here, but I also spend time adventuring and doing new things. I really started to discover who I was as a person in this town, and it will always be special to me.
I was accepted into the graduate program at BHSU. I am currently working on my Masters of Science in Curriculum and Instruction- Technology Integrationist. I will be finished in 2 years with this degree. I am working 3 jobs and tutoring. Job #1 is at Canyon Hills Center which is a Psychiatric Treatment Facility for kids, I am a 'residential counselor' and I mostly work overnights 2 days of the week. Job # 2 is as a work study at BHSU in the Instructional Technology department. Job # 3 is at Eleutian where I teach English to Korean students via online video classes. I tutor a 4th grade student 1 hour every Friday.
My schedule is chaotic and confusing. People ask me why I'm not teaching. People ask me how I manage it.
I'm not teaching because I applied and did not get a job, I am okay with that. I think I needed a break from the classroom. I am working 3 jobs to pay the bills, but also because I love all 3 jobs. I am working with children that are in need of positive role models, I am working with technology, and I am teaching a few hours every week. I am learning so much from each of my jobs, and meeting wonderful people that I love at each job.
I'm not sure where I will be in another year, but right now I am happy. Sometimes I just want a day off, I just want to sleep and rest. It is nice to have things to do though. I am learning so much from my classes, and I am incredibly challenged.
I still feel like a teacher even if I don't have a classroom that I spend 5 days a week in. Not having a solid plan scares me. I think I am finally getting comfortable with just living life though.
We are getting by. I am lucky enough to have jobs that I absolutely love. I have the opportunity to earn a graduate degree. My husband is the most amazing man in my eyes, and I am so happy to be with him. The future holds happiness even if I can't see the path.
